Lionel starts his daily radiation... I hope it all goes well....

It's been almost 3.5 weeks since we found out that he has the tumor that almost caused him to go paralyzed.  The hospital bills has been piling up, some allowed payment payments up to 3 years... I am not sure how he or us as a family can come up with additional $3,000 each month to pay for the hospital bills.  I do hope and pray that his radiation will be smooth and since I never had that, I don't know how it feels, I sure hope it does not hurt him.  Take care little brother!

Where are you my dearest Bruno, mama is missing you....

My dearest Bruno.... thank you for being a part in my life and now watching over mama.  Mama will always love you and we all miss you.  Please come into my dreams from time to time to let me know how you are doing.....  I love you.... from your dearest mama.

What is your hobby? I love looking at cakes.... Check out the cakes that I have done!

So, what is your hobby?  Not sure if this is considered my hobby since I do not really have free time.  I only do it during special ocassions and I just started learning how to make fondant cakes last year.  I had a friend who helped me with the fondant cakes miles away.  I met her after admiring her cakes online and since my first order, we became friends and have been chatting online.  She is such a nice girl, even though she is 10K miles away, she stayed up late till almost 4-5am since she is 12 hours ahead of us.  She make cup cakes and fondant cakes for a living, http://www.evadiscakes.com/   Just wanted to thank her for taking the time to teach me how to make these beautiful cakes. 

Anyway, check out my creations :)



Laynce's 4th Birthday cup cake in his school

Cookies for the goodies bag

He has requested an Airplane for his 4th birthday!

Front view of his Airplane cake

Laynce loves the Nissan GTR, he has requested for it for his 3rd birthday

Back view of the GTR cake... it is the first cake that I ever had to crave, I know, it looks as if the car is sinking :P

Cup Chinese New Year cup cakes for our guest

Our 8th Anniversary cake.  First time doing a 2 tier cake

Flowers are not real but I enjoyed doing this cake since it was for my parent's 35th anniversary and our 8th Anniversary, yes... they are on the same day, May 18th.

This cake was especially made for the tallest man that I've have met in person.  He is my coworker and my partner at work.  He is 6'6.  He told me once that he has a Popeye tattoo and I've decided to make the popeye and Olive for him for his 50th birthday.

Close up look of Popeye!

It was Laynden's 1st Month.... we had a small party and I decided to make some cute cupcakes for the guest.

A cute bootie for him....

Cancer.... what is it and why is it hitting my family all of the sudden?

It is just way too stressful now with everything that is going on.  Brother is slowly recovering, he is starting his radiation next week.  He seems to be walking better last week but this week, it looks like he is back to like before?  It is just hard as young people just do not seem to listen.  He is currently going to college and didn't want to be on the wheelchair and I think he has probably hurt himself a little by walking too far.

Hubby called his daddy tonight.  My father-in-law had prostate cancer 2-3 years ago and I was told that he had a surgery and was successful but like all cancer patients, they have to do a check up every "X" months or years.  He did his check up and they suspect that the cancer came back and probably spreading to the bones.  Doctor suggest that he does a PET Scan Carbon 11????  I am so bad with medical terms because growing up, at most I hear my grandparents have diabetes, high blood or high cholesterol.  The word cancer has never strike our family but sad enough, it is now. 

I told my husband that since he is unemployed now for the moment, he should take this time off to stay with his parents since they are in their 70s.  Though, they live miles away and that means, it will take him away from us....  Life is just too tough.  Still, the same question I ask each night before I go to sleep and before I make my prayers.... is tonight the end of the tunnel where I see the light? 

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Please pray for my brother!

Lionel is my little brother, even though he is 24, he will remain my little brother for the rest of my life.  I am the 2nd daugther in a family of 4.  When Lionel was born 6 years after me, all attention has been diverted to him.  Being the second daugther, I grew up not having much attention.  It was either my oldest sister or my brother because in our culture, the boys are important as they bring down the "family's name".  Though, I never feel upset that he took all the attention, in fact, we were closer to each other than the other sibblings.  My oldest sister and I always fight growing up since we were only 3 years apart but I had to help mom out to take care of Lionel since he is 6 years younger.  We grew up with the traditional cloth diapers and that's why I know about this at a very young age. 


Few months ago, Lionel complain that his back is hurting.  For years, on and off, he complains that he has sharp pain in the chest.  He always thought that it is because he hurt himself during a basketball game.  So, he has been drowning himself with Advil, the Costco size Advils has been drained out within weeks.  Then, approximately a month ago, he started sitting up to sleep.  Instead of laying down because it hurts him.  Unfortunately, I travel for work, so, I do not see him Mon- Thursdays and being a young man, he doesn't come home early at all, by the time he comes home, I am already in the room working on my business stuff while accompaying my sons to sleep.  2 weeks ago, he started walking weird and I finally saw it when he attended my son's birthday party (even though he lives with me but he is always in his room).  I insisted that he sees the doctor.  He hasn't really shown us how painful it is because he knows that he does not have health insurance and he knows that I am the only person working since my husband lost his job, he didn't want to burden anyone.  Last Thursday, I flew home and saw that this is not right, he has to drag himself and walking with a walking stick.


We drove him to the nearest ER.  They did a MRI and couldn't find anything, several doctors came by and finally, the did a second MRI and found out that his spinal cord has been compressed badly.   We were in the ER at around 7.30pm and by the time they found this, it was already approximately 6am.  Dad, mom and oldest sister including his gf were all there in the waiting room, all tired.  Doctor came in at 7am, told his that he wants to perform an emergency surgery at around 1-1.30pm.  Though, by 9am, a nurse came in, told us that the doctor do not want to wait as this is very serious.  He performed the surgery.  Around noon, we were told that he is suspected to have the Giant Cell Tumor.  They took out as much as they can and they do not think the tumor has spread, though, he will probably have to go through radiation.  Since he waited that long, the doctor said that there may be a chance where he may not walk like normal. 

Life is weird.... one minute, I have a perfectly healthy little brother, the other minute, I was told that my brother has cancer.  He is only 24, so, that night, I was sleeping outside of the Critical Care Unit, I was secretly praying to God, telling him, please shorten my life so that my little brother will live longer.  I am so sad... I am not sure why bad things keep happening to me and my family.  I do not know how long more I have to go through this dark and gloomy times.  Aunt from Australia called and told me to stay calm and that, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel, in my heart, I asked, will there ever be or am I just stuck in a dark hole?  One min we are fine and since he doesn't have insurance, the next minute, we are buried in more than 100K of debt.  :(

Everyday I deal with stress at work, stress at home and I have customers that think that I am a bad seller since I do not ship wtihin the time frame.  Most of the times is because I am waiting for customers to inform me of the print/ color selection because in the past, if I haven't heard from the customer, I randomly ship to them and again, they were unhappy.  To me, it is just always my fault.  I can never satisfy anyone in this world.  I just hope that sometimes, people would at least think that there could be going on in someone else's life and be easier on people.  Sometimes, the harsh words that buyer says to me really gets to me because I do take each and every email personally. 

It's like a dream... a very bad dream, I can never imagine losing my brother.... especially he is only 24. 

Please pray that my little brother will heal and get to live with me for as long as I live.  I love you Lionel, I hope you will grow and learn from everything, I hope that you will turn over a new leaf and appreciate everything around you. 

Happy 4th Birthday to my baby!

Dearest son, I cannot believe how time flies, I still can remember being pregnant with you and the day that you were born, tears rolled down from my eyes when I first saw you. You were and are so special to me.

Now, you are 4 and telling me what you want for your birthday. You are a good boy, you told mama that you wanted 2 presents but we negotiated down to only 1 present. You told mama that you wanted a laptop, so, mama got you a netbook. I can see that you love it a lot as you are enjoying it.  I was considering hard if I want to spend that money since your daddy is now out of job but in my heart, I will work extremely hard to provide anything my boys want if it is within my means.  It is sad, I don't know and probably will not tell you that your daddy is out of job.  Sometimes it breaks my heart when he tells me that he will wait for dada to get off work to pick him up, the truth is, dada no longer have a job.  I wanted to explain to you but it's ok... I will let you be a happy 4 year old thinking that everything is perfect, because you are PERFECT in my eyes.

Every year at 6.22pm on Feb 8th, I try to take a picture, this year, mama is a dot late but here are the pics of you since the first day you were born.

February 8th, 2007 - 6.18pm - Birth Day!

February 8th 2008 - 1st Birthday

February 8th 2009 - 2nd Birthday

February 8th 2010 - 3rd Birthday

February 8th 2011 - 4th Birthday

With his Birthday Present

Mama will make you the airplane fondant cake that you have asked for when grandma comes back.  I love you my dearest son!